The way I loved you.

So, lately I've been thinking- a lot. I've been thinking about things that have happened, what could have happened, and what could still happen. These thoughts race and I come up with questions that I don't have answers to, and because of this, I don't know what to do with the questions. Do I ask my friends and family how they would answer them? Do I write them down and leave them in a journal to never be answered? Or, do I post them up for people to ponder themselves, and share their ideas. I don't know which option to pick, but I guess I've picked the third one. I'll start with just one.

What made you like and/or fall in love with that certain person? Even if you aren't with them; if you're watching them from afar, if you're holding their hand right now, or if you were with them, but aren't anymore. Was it their laugh their smile, their looks, their personality, what they were wearing, how they smelled, what they said and how they said it? I don't know if I could answer this question myself, and because of this, I never like to ask the question, but eventually I want to answer it, just like that person answered it for me.

For me, I'd like to say that the reason I noticed you wasn't just how attractive you are, (I'd like it to be a little more romantic than that) but I can't say that. However, I also can't say that it was the only thing I noticed. It was your smile, your sense of humor, the things we bonded over- even if they are odd, but these are the things I first noticed. Over time I've come to somewhat know your quirks, the way you respond to certain things, and the way you show your emotions and how wear them on your face. Do I know everything about you? No, not even close, but this is why we're all given so much time to know each other: in order to find out things about each other on our own time- there's no rush.

You told me what you liked about me, and didn't ask the question back. That's okay though, I wouldn't have known how to answer. You said you liked me for who I am, not who I'm supposed to be, and for that I'm thankful. I can finally say that someone accepts me for who I am and know that I don't have to change.

I don't know where to go from here, or what to do, which by now is probably pretty apparent. Because of this, I have these questions, but no way to answer them. I might not know everything, but I'm not afraid to admit it. I am always looking for a way to find the answers that I am searching for.

Taylor Swift - The Way I Loved You

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dvJubjcx2tc